So it’s been about 10 months since I’ve posted a blog…

As you guys know I recently finished up my first year at university and it was filled with a LOT of things.

List of things that happened over these 2 semesters:

1. I have improved soooo much in flute playing! I am in the process of inventing and cultivating my own individual sound and I am just really loving all the flute playing I get to do! 

2. I’ve dated someone for the first time and he was a jackass.

3. After said jackass I’ve had my first boyfriend! We broke up because he will be moving to New York this upcoming week because he wants to be where his passion is and his passion is composing Musical Theatre. (We are still friends though).

4. Well I’ve had my heart broken severely this year by the first boyfriend.

5. Good grades! Managing a 3.8 GPA woot woot!!!

6. Drama drama draaaamaaaa! How the fuck do you avoid this in a department with so many queens?!?!? Ugh!!!

7. Made great friends.

However, the school year is done and we’re on to summer vacation now. So far in summer I have lounged around lazily for the majority and practiced! I have also had the luck of studying with a flutist who did her undergrad at the Paris Conservatory! I love her to death.

I will try to put up more shit bye.

harrysonrawr:

I play a high F# when my thumb is on the “thumb B flat key”.

I’m like:

 

(via thewingedmessenger)

Well lately I’ve neglected this thing for the past 2 months……… yeah I know I’m bad, but today I’m just so angry that I just HAVE to rant—then I guess I’ll give you guys an update and shit.

SO this is the story I have been playing on a Pearl 765RBE flute for 2 1/2 years and don’t fucking get this flute. For one I bought this used cause my fucking dad is a cheapass and doesn’t believe in buying things that aren’t shitty quality. Two apparently this flute has something against low notes (I’ll explain once I go over all the problems). Three no matter what I do, no matter how hard I try the flute maintains this same “Sweet”, obnoxious tone and it cannot project for beans. I feel that it lacks the edge flutes need in order for soloists to play effortlessly. BUT I ON THE OTHER HAND HAVE TO TRY FUCKING HARD JUST TO ATTACK A LOW NOTE AND 80% OF THE TIME IT WON’T COME OUT. I’ve tried other flutes and they were so easy to play, and the low notes just pop out. AND projection is so easy on them, but on this flute no! Definitely not, it’s a fucking obstacle to play an easy piece without dying from lack of oxygen. And what really presses my buttons is I have friends who buy 3,000$ flutes and decides that they’ll stop practicing in High School and when college starts they’ll just TOTALLY neglect the poor things. And I’m trying to explain this to my friend—who is a flute neglecter—and all she says is like “Don’t let it get to you” I mean How the fuck do I NOT let this get to me? I’m fucking majoring in music, my income and my progression RELIES on my fucking flute!! HOW DO I NOT LET IT GET TO ME WHEN YOU ARE SITTING IN YOUR UNIVERSITY DORM NOT TAKING ONE MUSIC CLASS AND YOU HAVE A FUCKING 3,000$ FLUTE? WELL SORRY I CARE ABOUT MY MUSICAL CAREER! THEN I have friends who don’t even play remotely DECENT—see not just well they’re not even DECENT— and they buy expensive flutes and just decide to quit. And when I ask if he can lend it to me—especially since I haven’t ever heard him use it—he says, “I gotta ask my parents” Well Idk about you, but if my fucking child quit flute and someone else wants to use it who actually NEEDS a working flute I’d be more than happy. I’m here working on my fucking Khachaturian Concerto trying to ignore these missed low notes and “NOT LET IT GET TO ME” but I cannot help but stop in the middle of a practice session and want to scream or cry because it’s so fucking stressful. I would rather have me as the reason for my digression in talent, rather than my flute.

I don’t feel like updating, but I’m moving into college this saturday.

HEY ALL! I haven’t posted in a month or so… WELL good news huns of all shapes and sizes I just got my driving permit! (I know a little late) But I plan to do my license test on my birthday and pass! Umm …. Yeah

I’ve also started a new flute piece by Khachaturian! Originally it’s a violin concerto, but Jean-Pierre Rampal did an arrangement for flute and orchestra. I love it a lot it’s so pretty and the cadenzas are so pretty!

So lately all I’ve been doing is playing Street Fighter and practicing.

Sorry for shitty update I’ll do a better one and talk more often! :]

As much as I love summer—and lemme tell ya I love it a lot—it fucks up my internal clock. I had no idea that last night was a Monday, I mean I went out with my friends felt like a normal Saturday! But I love how stress free summer is so far, so it is keeping me content. What’s so mystical about summer is that I’ve been begging for it to come since September, but now that it’s here I don’t have much to do. I don’t want to sound like an ungrateful bitch, but I need some sparkle in my life. I need to go out and have some real, exciting fun! But I don’t see none of that happening around me. Anyways… I’m trying to change my ways—for the better. I jogged around my neighborhood and then to a nearby plaza, so I felt really good! I never go jogging outside, but I decided why complain about my fatass when I can run it off. And this summer I’m going to actually read books for once and practice etudes—even though I HATE etudes… So it seems like I will have to become familiar with Taffenel and Gaubert’s 17 daily exercises—apparently it’s the flute bible, but I’ve only used it twice prior to this break. But if I don’t wanna become a loser reject in college I guess I have to do it haha.

So this is just a quick book list for my summer:

Taffenel and Gaubert’s 17 Daily Exercises

Of Course Sex and the City (Big fan!!)

And I’m not sure if I’ll get to this, but I want to because of my English class this passing year. Le Morte D’Arthur

PS: This weekend I’m going to Pride Parade in San Fran, so be there or be square. But yeah it’s my first time going to one of these things, so I’m not sure of what to expect. I’m kinda scared I’m pretty excited!

Tata!

So hello my fans—well that is no one right now.. but hi to whomever this concerns. A lot of great things are happening in my life that I really must appreciate, but there are quite a few things that disappoint me. But let’s start with the good before I rant about the bad, shall I?

Well first off, I am free of my damned braces! I can smile and not be afraid of having chunks of food stuck in it, nor be worried about tearing the inside of my cheeks or lips. Hooray! I graduated from highschool successfully; however, I probably got the worst GPA out of my grade history in highschool. But it’s okay my University isn’t an Ivy league so I need not worry. My family loves me, and support me with my decision to major in music, and pursue flute as my future carreer. And on another note my university is bending over backwards to help me financially by giving me a huge aid for my tuition and room/board costs. These are all great things I usually take forgranted, but I cannot express how thankful, nor how excited I am for my bright(hopefully bright) future. But to my dismay nothing is perfect, and there are quite a few disappointing things in my life.

For one, my flute has some leaks…STILL! Even after asking my teacher to help fix, clean it, and tune it up etc. So it is kind of holding me back, because I have tried other flutes and I know my tone can be so much better than what it is right now. And on another note, the guy I like… sigh… I keep thinking I should give up on him. He’s usually busy with studying, but this summer he’s doing an internship. So I don’t get to see him, and he’s never on instant messanger… At times I felt like he had something for me, but now I’m kind of feeling like I’m in a slum. I’m also packing on a few pounds, so I’m not as skinny as I used to be. Meaning I don’t feel as sexy as I used to haha, but I’m not the only one in that pool. But I just really wish he could just give me a sign on whether I should really bother to keep trying for him, or to just stop… ugh! This is frustrating. I’m almost 18, and I’ve never been in a relationship. I’ve been stuck on this guy for a few months and I really like him, but I don’t know anything about this stuff. Sigh…

With all this aside I look toward a bright, and magical summer filled with new experiences and friendships. We’ve all heard the saying “When life gives you lemons make some lemonade” But a wise friend told me in class, “When life gives you lemons, stuff them under your shirt to enhance your assets” So hopefully these sour lemons will mature in to perky breasts with a bright future.